Running Away

I run into Mark in the Cap’n Kidd.

I believe I have to die, I say to Mark. We’re drinking Bud long necks at the bar.

We all have to die, Mark answers.

Of course but that’s not what I mean.

What do you mean?

It feels like I have to die in order to live. I say this to you and I’m not sure what it means. But everywhere I look I see my death.

Yet here you stand.

Only because I’m afraid to face it.

Aren’t you facing it now?

No. I always run away just before it happens.

Maybe it’s just your ego.

What?

That has to die.

What?

Ego death. Maybe that’s what you’re facing — the dissolution of your ego identity.

I don’t know what that means. If that happens I’ll go crazy.

Maybe you’re already crazy. Maybe it’s the way out.

Out of what?

Whatever it is you’re asking me about.

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